I know how I haven't been a really good daughter to my parents this whole time. Don't wanna blame her anymore. I was certainly raised in an environment I didn't please, but I've always had the option to get out of it. Not literally though, it's as the saying "be the change you want" goes.

Had a major fight with her again. She said I was never respectful to her, rude and a lot of other makian but idk-- those words didn't really have some kind of impact on me. I kept thinking that she was the one who shaped me the way I am now. My huge ego did play more or less a role in this part.

Anyway fast forward, I got asthma attack (probably why I didnt cry so much, I couldnt even catch my breath) for a solid 15 minutes (or more) right after she's done with everything she had for me.

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