This is exactly why I wanted say goodbye when we're off to matrics. I knew exactly that this would happen. It's so hard to wake up everyday knowing you have someone else in mind rather than me alone. I've been holding it for so long pretending I'm all okay, having the slightest hope that one day we'll go back to how we used to be. I forgot when was the last time we were genuinely happy with each other. I don't see that Nan that I used to love so much in you anymore. I hope this goodbye will bring good to each of us. This is the most I can do to make you happy again, by leaving. You know I love you but I can't stay. I'm so sorry for everything. Take care Nan. 😊